Finally I told him abt the sms..

I am still haunted by reading his sms.. thus i decided to tell him once and for all! i smsed him saying i had something to tell him... i started off saying we were frens for 4 yrs, and tt i regarded him as my close fren. so we shld be honest with ea other...

it was then, tt he finally broke the news to me. he said he had wanted to tell me abt his breakup. but did not know hw to bring it up and let me know.. and told me nt to worry.. he is fine now.. tho at times might miss her... he added tt he is nt offended or angry with me for reading..

phew! i was relieved. but i really hpe he is ok and really dont blame me for reading them....

btw, tmr will be my first day back at NOL...

Last day at STlogs

Today is the last day at stlogs. Time flies, and I have been with the co for 9mths... initially was a nightmare, all the breaking down at work.. and depression.. but after few mths, i got along so well with my colleagues, i find it sad to leave them.. but too bad, this is nt a perm job.. really think i wil miss working with my colleagues, cos we really work well together.. we will scold ea other when we are unhappy with ea other, but i like tt, at least we are different from the rest of the co, where pple show put on a mask. Sincerely will miss all of them. Esp my mentor, who has been supporting me during my stay.

It was a really busy day, rushing to clear as much as i cud. But too bad, i cant clear all.. i'm sorry tt i have to leave some things for my colleague to clear, but i hope i have given clear instructions.

well, he came to pick me up at ard 8.30pm, as i had requested.. on my way to dinner, his phone rang.. i vaguely heard a female's voice!  and i suspect it was viv who called to ask him if he managed to find my workplace. Yeah! y is she so concern?!
we went for dinner near my place.. we were rather quiet.. cos i wasnt really talking, i keep thinking in my mind, hw shld i tell him abt reading his sms? when we were almost finish, i took my hp out, and asked him "do u want to delete ur stuff urself?" He shook his head.  I hinted him once abt those sms, and he only told me to delete them. now when i personally tell him, he still refuse to say anything?!  

and tt's the end of story! he just sent me back... no conclusion.

Dont Know why..

Today like no mood to work.. So many things to do also don’t know wat to do first. And today ev1 in my dept v tensed up cos my last day this Thurs, then my other colleague next wk... A lot of huo yao wei.. cos when we chk, we realize tt my colleagues did not do, but we dont know y.. Then I’m also clearing shit partly left over by her and another colleague. alot of things only they know. We are like half pail water...... but they don’t find time to clear them.. So it becomes a big mess. Sometimes don’t know why so many outstanding things hanging in the air...

Will be meeting him this Thurs... I asked him to come pick me up at work, cos I had a lot of things to bring home (actually it’s an excuse to meet him) >< I don’t know if I dare to tell him about reading his sms... I hope I will.....

Don’t know if he'll be open to me. Actually scare he will gen wo fan lian on the spot........ I so want to know who's this Viv. I know I shld take things as it comes..... but I don’t know if I shld go all out to ......... u know... to zhen qu my xing fu and to spend another half yr or more to do tt... cos I am afraid.. My colleague asked me y I "si yao zhe bu fang". I also dunno y.. tt time I still don’t know they broke. Then I was looking for my sms, and suddenly I saw those sms, I cried when I read his sms to her gf. I don’t know y. Is it bcos I like him too much to feel his pain, or is it becos, I wanted desperately for them to be happy, but it turned out otherwise? Or is it becos, I regretted not staying by his side during the past one yr.

I feel so sian when I think abt the things tt happen to him. The sms keep replaying in my head and I feel so helpless.. I thot I want to give him up liao, then this happen, and I had to find out thru this unexpected way. What is God trying to do here?

SHOCKING NEWS got from his HP

This afternoon at work, something drastic happen...I realized he did not delete his sent and archive from his phone, and his numbers also..... numbers stil ok... I just saw his GF name, acc no, gf auntie no..

THEN, I wanted to find a sent item I saved ytd... and I realized tt he did not delete his sms. So......I read 2 of them and I realized tt he and his GF has prob liao... and I think they BROKE OFF!

I CRIED in office. Shld I tell him tt he did not delete them? My colleague told me tt I shld tell him, and not continue reading the rest..... yes I know its rude to but I really want to know y and what happen btw them........

I saw a lot of sent sms to vivian! who is VIVIAN!!????

Meeting him again

Haha, met him today to get my new hp!! He wanted to come and fetch me, but I declined.. dont want him to feel tired..but as usual, he sent me back.

He just finished his CFA and we met in the evening. Besides dinner, we watched Harry Porter.. We only had a causal chat over dinner.. and I happily took his hp. I even took a photo of him!! LOL...
And ooops.. I never asked anything about his relationships.. Still kai bu liao kou loh.. haiz.. Perhaps its for my own good not to know..